|Tuesday, September 8th, 2009|
|holy fuck batman
i can't believe i remembered my password after like 5 years so yeah guess i'll be back on this bitch once more.. talk to ya'll soon!!!! Current Mood: amused
|Tuesday, December 7th, 2004|
|Don't worry I'm still alive, barely
Well I suppose those whom care that I have not been writing in a while.. Well there are several reasons for that one being that I have been working at borders book store and I have to drive 45 mins one way to get to work and then drive back tiers a person out. I’m in the process of getting a new place out in the country really nice quite and next to a large national park so I can be at one with nature I suppose you could say.. It’s a nice place I’ll post some pictures when I can. the second being that my family has been going thro some stress being that my sister is in this huge custody battle over my niece with some dip shit that doesn’t even care about my niece or her wellbeing , he just wants to control my sisters life. and the third being the stress I’m bringing down on my family with the thought that I may have ovarian cancer meaning I might have to have a major surgery, so even if I may have wanted to have children down the line I may not be able to if I survive and I might be able to have one not but being that I have some much going on and I don't feel it's the right time for m to bring a child into the world. I have brought myself to depression to have a child now and forget about traveling and the life I wanted before children or to wait and maybe miss out on the joy of having a child all together... not to mention I haven't been able to get a hold of Scott and I’m kind scared of the way he will or wont react, when I talked to Steven about it actually he had called me right after I talked to the doctors, his response was " don't die before I come out there." ( meaning in his own way that me dying would ruin his trips to California I mean whom would he stay with and would drive him around and who could he brag to about how huge of a whore he has become!!) I dunno it made me so mad to know this whole time I have known him at lest thought I did he never cared about my well being. So it makes me think, whom else do I now know... I mean really think about this people you really don't know any one you only know what the person allows you to know for as long as they feel like holding up there mask of lies.
If I die, my only wish is that I could be remembered by those whom will always hold a place in my hart. Current Mood: depressed
|Thursday, November 18th, 2004|
|been a while
so yeah , it's been a while sence i've updated..........any thing. well umm i'm back in california and oh my fucking god i am soo glade about that . I'm working at borders book store in visalia and it's been kicking much ass. Me and eric have been hang'n out and what not were ganna go out on the boat a few days ago but there was some heavy fog that came in so we thought we would another time. OH yeah by the way Eric pissed me off really bad today but i'll write about that later, just wanted to say yes i am alive thanks for the concern. Current Mood: aggravated
|Monday, October 25th, 2004|
|Monday, October 11th, 2004|
|never trust the new girl
ok so there is this new chick at work she's young and really dumb i don't care for her but what ever she was throwing a part at her apt on saterday i got draged there every one got wasted and what not lot of fun she wanted round two so we partied sunday night too but not as fun some people no one cares for at work showed up and the new girls boyfriend was acting like a dick.. any way we all called the night early broke out like 4 am i got a call about 2 hours ago from misty seems the new chick lost a despoable camra with pictures of every one getting high and drink'n now she is say'n if she doesn't get it back she's ganna develope the second camra there at work so every one gets busted... if so ... OMG this bitch is going to get her head kicked in............
|Friday, October 1st, 2004|
|back and better then ever
OK... in the last episode of "Daniella's life" we were experiencing emotion difficulties with dealing in strange situations this time around I say fuck it let thing happen the way there supposed to I’ll be back to California on Halloween fist order of business is to get a nice costume and go to the bondage ball in west Hollywood.. then it's to spend some quality time with the family and get a temp job out in Fresno then when me and Eric should have the house were ganna rent by thanks giving and I shall get a better job there register for medical school and do my " thing" til I’m out of school then I can travel every where... and on the note of relationships I a just content with myself... I have no time to waste on "love" I rather explore lust and passion much funnier don't you think? Current Mood: chipper
|Thursday, September 2nd, 2004|
|I got Bologna in my pocket and i know how to use it....
well yeastrday was a day off not to bad cleaned fucked around watching Gia god i love that movie think i shall become a gragon chashing super modal.. yeepie.. any who yeah and then yar, and who ha and what not.. todays to do list consest of washing clothing and watching more movies and what not yay!!! mmmmummm errrr.. i'm in a goffy mood that chick i was chasing dunno what she wants so i'm tooo bored with that kinda shit to play games soo i've moved on... what sucks is at work they are cutting every ones hours way back... i wanna go visit scott and hang out but no money soo that's all on hold.. we were on the phone yesterday night made me think of how bad i miss hang'n out with him...damn it Mr. Pink. :P any way yo.. i gatta eat and go to the landry mat and sit on the washer while it's on spin cycle wooohoooo!!!!!
(God is under my regester.... and i've sold 6 1.5 oz bottols of k.y. warming liquid to minors... i rule...) Current Mood: geeky
|Sunday, August 29th, 2004|
|what's new pussy cat....
Well mist, tiffany and I will be looking at a house in a few days and desiting if it's for us or if we shall hold off and get another...eric keeps say'n he's going back to california but i have a feeling that if i stay he will too but i dunno this is just speculation... things at work are going well but every ones hours have been cut way back i know they will pick up around the end of sep due to the Asshole-a-days :P but never the less i still plan on getting a second job why... because i like being able to pay my bills and still go buy random shit i really don't need ... ahh.. yes the random shit fatcor .. indeed it is good to be me.. been talking to a few def. people at work got alot of new young people a few hot chicks been flurting with a couple but dunno if it will go any were if not that 's still cool don't really want it i'm having fun just making them wet.. i'm such a fucking clit tease... I think one of my coworkers maybe try'n to hook me up with her daghter she just recently came out of the closet to her mother and now her mom always wants to tell me about her and gets made that i missed her when i come into work... but she's like 17 sooo maybe in a year i'll ... umm yeah.... i only know for sure i met her once but i don't remember much .. any way i need to finish getting dressed for work.. i think we might be going clubing agean after work not sure.... I'm starting to like san antonio.... Current Mood: flirty
|Wednesday, August 25th, 2004|
|some thing is coming and i feel ready
yesterday and last night me and misty hung out we got lost for about 3 hours but we had a blast ended up at gabriels and he and two cuzens were there we all got stoned and cracked on each other much fun... when i hang with misty and gab or any other friends dude i forget every thing that's got me pissed off or stressed out about i wannna stay here in san antonio but i really miss california so i dunno what to do it's like i'm fighting with myself what would be best for me and what will make me happy i'm not too sure.. but i have this feeling i'm about to have some thing happen to day that will give me some clairety sooo i shall waite on that i wish for the best i suppose ........... meow.......... can't waite till marrow after work misty gab. me and jhon are all going to electric the club i have wanted to go for a while but it's a date and i veary much look forward to it.. i'll........ get back to you on what happends.... buh bye.... Current Mood: anxious
|Friday, August 20th, 2004|
|the more people i'm around the more i feel alone
.. I dunno lately things have been feeling strange well for a lil while i was happy and things were cool.. but now i feel simi home sick but i really want to be out on my own.. i want the company of friends but i feel like every one is fake, i want to have it all but i feel left with out any thing i dunno what to say or what to do i just know i want to be happy... but some thing veary large is missing in my life... Current Mood: depressed
|Tuesday, August 17th, 2004|
|I burned my bread... :(
i hate the oven it over heats and burns half of what ever is in the back.....must kill oven...... Current Mood: sad
|Saturday, August 14th, 2004|
|another day another beer to help me forget it all
well misty, gabe, tiff and I whent to a tehano club to party with a friend of mine from work we drank had a good time....i parked the car on friday the 13th and the miliage was set at 6666 and 66.6 miles and we were tripping out on it.. after the party misty's cuzen tiff. split and got attacked out side her apt. we rushed over and she was on just scratched and brused from some fuck'n asshole that tryed to rape her..god... i need another drink... Current Mood: drained
|Wednesday, August 4th, 2004|
|WELL HELLO ...IS ANY BODY OUT THERE?
Well my love.... it's been a while sence i have up dated any thin gon my journal due to drama .. well more so then usual i moved out of my aunt marys house b/c of her consent shit talking lies and and drama i now live with eric in a nice apt near the air force base were stay'n here for a few more months till I end my lease and then were both packing up and going back to california vally i'm not going back to Fresno but i will be an hour and a few min. away from my mommy so i can look in on her and help out and what not... ganna go to school at C.O.S. when i get back tranfer to another walmart if they have an opening and just be on my own for a while... i'm sooo tierd of the consent drama here in tx and the bibble beaters i work with thou i will miss a few friends i have made here but i'm sure they will make there way out there some time to see me or we will cross paths agean and if not i'm ok with that b/c right now i just need to live for me and what in my best interest, but god i miss California weather and people and clubs and what not and i can't waite to get back and go to san fran and La and party in T.J. and who ha and what not that will be killer... hmmmm.. well my plans to hang out with scott a week ago feww thou as usual i was flat broke so the trip was canceld we were both bumed but maybe there will be another time maybe not but who's to say... i just need to take care of my self been stressed and what not lately and well Eric helps me with my stress and some times i can talk to my mom or sis and feel a lil better but i really miss a few people.. and i think they know whom they are... doubt they still read my journal but if they do yes i still think baout you and wish the best and your happy... dunno what to say other then that... as of now i life consest of working and paying bills not to mention ... pay'n a fucking ticket i got for going 5 miles over the speed limit what fuckerie.... any way i'm tierd and stressed so i'm ganna go to bed and hope tomarrow will be a better day.. sweet dreams to whom still cares... Current Mood: depressed
|Monday, July 5th, 2004|
|Happy fucking forth Yo....
well i missed my family deeply this fourth but me an deric hung out watched movied and wrasseld that was soo much fun.. i beat the crap out of him several times .. it was great... any whoo yeah i got a head ack from being on my head and he has bruses all over his chest thighs arms and a fat red and purple bruse on his for head.. he is sooooo my bitch lol @ eric.. talked to misty told her i had a blast hang'n out with her adn gabrel the other night we spent the whole night talking about best and worst of sex and relation ships and ended the night going to an adult mega plex and going thou over priced toys and then whent to taco cabana and ate and and talked till 9 am then i dropped them off at hoime and i whent to work.. what a day that was.. any way things are looking up me misty and eric are talking about getting a 3 br place out her and looks like we will killer... well i'm off to pay some bills and watch some porn bye bye Current Mood: thankful
|Tuesday, June 22nd, 2004|
|getting ready to move on
well....one f my CSM's at work got me sick fuck'n "A" i think i might have gotten strip throut...... my aunt is really pissing me off she has been cought several times going into my wallet and purse and going thou my recipts that really pisses me off when any one geting into my busness it's one thing to ask another to just go into things and well i'm not ganna deal withthat shit soo i will be moving out probly not to erics but i will be moving in a few moths with my co worker misty things should be cool i just really need out... umm after work i might hang out with a friend for a while but i'm just soo damn tierd of every thing and every one but any way i gatta go to work so i'll bitch about life later Current Mood: lonely
|Sunday, June 20th, 2004|
|Saturday, June 19th, 2004|
|how to make me
Current Mood: busy
|How to make a evilmuppetchick|
1 part mercy
1 part self-sufficiency
1 part instinct
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add fitness to taste! Do not overindulge!
|time to update
ok well sence the last time i was on things have been driving me crazy my aunt i swear i think i am starting to dispise old people they give me head acks i bought a new snake he's a ball pythone and he about a foot and a half long and sooo loving him name is Mr. Winkie and i love him lots... he has to live at erics because the old lady would flip...er.. still haven't met any one that sparks a huge interest to me i thougth i did but when we hung out.. i thougth he was more then he really was...i got high and man did i need it ... and err. i'm in the proses of dye'n my ahir and man it burns like fucking crazy i want to wrise it out but that would be a huge waste of money so i have'nt
... i really miss scott .. i miss hang'n out and what not and just bull shitting i wanna give him a hug.. but that's like a 3 hour drive and i have lil to no gas.. soo i wont buti miss the brat.. Current Mood: annoyed
|Saturday, June 12th, 2004|
|yeah.. i got nice tits.. but my balls are better
Any way last nights plans were to hang out with several people ... and i made plans with 3 def. people just in case one of them fucked me over and didn't show up sooo what happend........ none of the fuckers can make it... not to mention none of them called to tell me so ... well patric did but he called me like 12am so what the fuck.... soo i was pissed all dressed up no where to go spent my whole looking foward to gettng out and what not so i whent picked up eric and made him go with me and gte lost down town...funny thing is down town San Antronio is not as big as i thought it would be but any way after being hit on my hookers and seeing some crake heads we decited pay 7 bucks to park and walk around was way tooo deep so we bought some alcoholic bevrages got drunk off out asses had some smoke and watched x-files and watched me fall like 4 times ...( short skirts, and strapie high heels down mix to well with rum....) then i crashed there and drove back in the morning i had fun thou.... but every one that lagged on me..... you suck!!! Current Mood: satisfied